Don’t Leave

Another rhyming poem, “Don’t Leave” is about pushing people away without meaning to. Originally written in November of 2020.

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I yelled at you and I’m sorry,

I think you should go home.

I still love you, I promise,

I just want to be alone.

When I lash out and scream

It’s not because I hate you,

But last time I didn’t speak,

It was the last thing that I knew.

I couldn’t think or see or breathe,

I couldn’t fight or even move.

Someone took control of me,

And now my mind has been abused.

Now I yell and I scream

Because that person changed my life.

Now I’m a slave to the drink,

And my wrists are always sliced.

It was Suicide Eve,

Parents gone for the night,

Laid out everything I’d need,

Then you show up as a surprise.

I didn’t mean to hurt you,

I know my words sting like ice.

It’s all the shit I’ve gone through,

It makes me do things that aren’t right.

I should be saying thank you,

Because you saved my life.

I would have hung a noose,

Or used the blade of a knife.

I say bad things with no excuse,

I’m really not that nice,

But you are my muse

And I need you to write.

You’ll never have a clue

That I wanted to die tonight

Because you’re someone I can’t lose,

And I’m afraid I might.

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